December 2009
endings lead to new beginnings.
the more that i think about only having two more days of 2009, the more anxious i get. i’m so scared to let go of this year.
i wanna wake up where you are.
oh my god.
it feels so good to hear you say those words again.
“you lift me way up high,
you give me butterflies,
i need you.
do you need me?
you’re everything to me,
but if you want i’ll let you be.”
13834.) I don't miss him. I just miss the way he...
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i hate every time you two do this. to be honest, no one gives a shit. stop pretending that they do.
you've stolen my heart, yes you have.
it’s an amazing feeling once you find love, or an equivalent of it. there’s nothing better than knowing that you’re wanted the way that everyone wants to be wanted. having that, brings so much fear. what if it ends tomorrow? what if it’s all a lie? what if i like you more than you like me? those questions are never answered.
we all strive to find that “one...
maydayparade.
and i got the point that i should leave you alone,
but we both know that i’m not that strong.
formspring time.
formspring.me/thisisreallife
formspring.me/thisisreallife
ask something. :]
my best friend is the best.
she always knows when i need to talk but i don’t wanna ask. i guess that’s what happens when you’ve been best friends for 12 years. :]
try and beat that.
you are just as important.
i’m sorry you feel that you’re second in the relationship. i’ve been there, i know what you’re feeling. the only thing you can remember are the days when you spent sleepovers wishing you were older, laughing non-stop for hours, knowing that you were #1 in that persons life.
it sucks to erase that and know that you come after someone that hasn’t been there for nearly...
don't do that.
i hate when you ask me to hang out and say “soandso can’t” or “no one else can”. well, thank you. i’m really freaking glad that i’m the last choice on your list.
just so you know, i’ll always be busy when you say that.
left out.
everyone thought they were being outrageous, but they weren’t. they were right. though, the words they spoke were harsh - they were true. maybe it’s your turn to take a step back and look at yourself, and the things you do. maybe you could learn a thing or two about yourself and the way that you leave people out - but expect more from others.
people are so irritating.
happy news;
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i'm rather scared.
2009 has been by far the best year of my life. i’ve had a lot of hard times and a lot of struggle, but the happiness i’ve experienced outweighs that. i have had so many amazing things happen to me and i’ve done things that i never thought i could. i’ve met everyone that i’ve needed & wanted to meet.
i’m scared to let this year go. i’m afraid 2010, and...
one of those days.
today was one of those days that i spent with someone who makes me genuienly laugh. the kind of laugh that you did as a child, the innocent kind. personally, the best kind.
i feel so blessed to know that i have a person like that in my life. and not just one, multiple. but today i realized a special bond. a bond where there is absolutely no judging, no mean thoughts, no anger - just pure...
it's been rough.
you’ve come in and out my life,
and it’s been harder to say goodbye each time.
your smile and laugh never seize to amaze me,
and they still bring me butterflies.
those innocent memories still bring out the best in me,
and i’ll never forget the way you looked at me.
you will always be the first one,
and no one can replace that.
we all want it, few get it.
our hearts beat for love.
my eyes blink for admiration.
our blood flows for acceptance.
my knees tremble for change.
our fingers write for the future.
my lips ache for you.
our ears listen for three words.
we all want the same thing,
we just don’t know it.
my gift to you, my heart was yours.
it’s starts with a smile,
ends with tears.
you don’t expect this happiness to end,
until the day he calls and his voice sounds different.
he won’t admit to hurting inside, just to avoid the conversation.
you know. you know it isn’t the same.
the only thing you want, is to make it the way it was.
you want him to look at you the way he used to.
but you know, it...
I’m waiting, hoping for things to get better, everyone says they will, but everything everyone says is an opinion, even when they say its not.
so true.
“Can miles truly separate you from friends? If you want to be with someone you love, aren’t you already there?” -Richard Bach
i like geting mail. :]
two bands are being sweet enough to mail me their ep’s for free, with a christmas card and a drawing. :D
check em out;
http://www.myspace.com/jakerheaumemusic
http://www.myspace.com/reachingforroses
it's time for a change.
i allow people to do things that bother by me, and not say a word to them. i hold it in because “it’s just not worth it”. the people i believe shouldn’t do those things, do them. i’m thankful, so thankful, that i have other people in my life that wouldn’t dream of hurting me.
it’s truly sad, because they don’t ever realize who they’re hurting....
violence.
i’ve always been a true believer in peace, always. i accept everyone for themselves, no matter what. i don’t understand why kids & adults feel the need to be violent. love is so much more powerful than hate and anger. i don’t understand how people can watch someone being beaten up or made fun of and not say a word. it physically hurts me to see that.
my mission in life; to...
don't forget december.
it’s odd. i still remember the night of new years eve 2009. it’s been a roller coaster of a year, but it has been by far the best. i’ve learned so much about myself and others. it’s been a difficult year, for sure. but it has been by far the best i could ever ask for. it’s amazing to me that at 16 i can experience such pure bliss. it brings me hope to what else...
it's finally going away.
writing all of my fears out is actually helping. looking at the words on the page and knowing that i can conquer it? gives me a feeling of strength.
i can do this. i can fight this feeling.
until next time,
molly.